New Year Reflections - Lynne Alison

Lynne Alison - poet

  New Year Reflections - Lynne Alison

Yes, a new year approaches, but the first of January is no different from the 364 days that came before it. Why do we see it as a day of resolution? What are we hoping to achieve?

We begin with what we feel we should be doing, inadvertently condemning ourselves for all the wrongs we feel we have committed, when we all work as best we can with the resources we have at any given time.

Maybe your list is long, “I should, I should, I should!"

It feels great to get started because for a couple of weeks, you feel like a “better” person. Only to fall back and stop dead in your tracks, why? Because no one can pretend to be someone they are not.

Dare I say, stop looking outward. Stop comparing yourself to others. This year, for the first time in all your years of failed resolutions, look within. Listen to the beat of your heart. The tingling on your skin. What is it that you know you will love and have yet to start?

That’s how best to begin not just a new year but any new day. I know I will!

It Knows More Than I Do (pain)

I don’t know loss,

Like you know loss.

Grief so unique,

To each one of us.

Time doesn’t mend,

It’s of no benefit to hear this,

Is it?

Time passes, and as it does,

Our memories move further away...

We want to heal,

We want the pain to forget we are worthy of it.

We want it to leave us be,

But it won’t, until we

Feel it, let it go, and,

Move on.

And then it takes even more from us.

I don’t want to forget you!

I don’t want to leave you behind!

You were supposed to live out this life with me,

I’m so angry that you didn’t!

I’m so angry at myself for being angry at you,

And just when I can’t stop crying,

I laugh,

At the antics of you.

Ridiculous, in mind and spirit,

And then I feel pain again.

I don’t think it will ever leave,

But I’m learning to live with it.

I keep a chair at the table,

For when it visits.

I set a place for it,

I welcome it,

I listen to it,

I hug it just before it tells me goodbye,

Because I know you will return.

You always do!

And each time you come to visit,

I have a new story for you,

And I watch how your smile widens,

And the pain I once felt,

Provides me now with a little comfort,

And I remember,

Just enough,

A perfect amount...

That I know,

You will never,

Leave,

My

Heart.

And I feel so grateful to have

Known you,

To once, have had you in my life,

To,

Love.

Lynne Alison - Ireland

HAPPY NEW YEAR